Recently, on my 25th birthday, I posted a photo and jokingly wrote in the caption that a quarter life crisis would follow. Apparently it wasn’t actually a joke. Against the advice of my family and friends and totally out of character, I quit my full-time job. I’m so “Type A” that I have anxiety when the volume for the TV or radio is something other than an interval of five. As you might imagine and in typical Type A fashion, I always have a plan, and I’m always prepared… until now. I have no idea what my next move will be. But you know what? I am not nervous or anxious; I am liberated.
Former colleagues are asking me about what is next, and for once in my life I am responding by saying “I don’t know”. At first I was embarrassed, but now I am not. I have never had a “break” in my entire life. I deserve this moment in time to undo the burnout I feel and truly figure out what my calling is in life. I worked my ass off, and still do. I got my first real job at fourteen, and haven’t stopped since. I almost always have two jobs while going to school or pursuing some other passion simultaneously. So much so, that during my last year of graduate school I was enrolled in full-time coursework while working full-time.
Even though I soon won’t have a full-time job, I still have two part-time jobs, and what feels like a million other side projects, so don’t be so quick to label me as a “typical” millennial. I’m not lazy, never have been, and never will be. I am still responsible and gave my employer ample notice, but now the countdown to the unknown is on… literally. I have an app on my phone that is counting down the days, hours, minutes, and seconds until I am unemployed, and I could not be more excited (as I write this there are 11 days, 21 hours, 49 minutes, and 46 seconds left).
Quitting isn’t cowardly; on the contrary, it is brave. I am practicing self-care and creating space for myself to begin down a path that is more purposeful and better set with intention. This is the least anxious and depressed, and the most free I’ve ever felt. For now, I am finding comfort in the unknown and embracing it with open arms. This is my time.